(wow writign this on april fools lol,, tho this aint rlly a joke) all of my close and amazing friends in the past ive had have all left me. all for prob good reasons 2,, i might not rlly be the best friend every close friend ive had in the past, one were i would think we're inseperable, have always gone. every single time without fail. only ppl i talk 2 now r ppl ive met this past yr or so, and it... » Continue Reading
i remember once talking to one of my aunts abt some of my issues. well she's techincally just a rlly close friend to my dad, but i just call her my aunt. she's helped me alot. but i remember her once telling me something like "even though it hurts a lot to be a lot more sensitive, and to think differently. like you take everything truly by heart, and think about it way more and feel it on a deepe... » Continue Reading
ive been starting to feel rlly fat and ugly again. i mean, i try pretty decently with how i look. ig sure i dress sort of baggy or like idc, but i care sm abt how i look. i hate it when my outfit isnt put together well, i hate it when my hairs not coperating, i hate it when i just overall look bad. it makes me feel terrible. i hate it 2 bc i get so jealous of everyone, even the ppl closest 2 me. t... » Continue Reading
sm has honestly felt like its been rlly built up in my head ive been trying to feel happy again but it feels so hard, like atp i rlly have just lost myself. ive been thinking sm 2 abt if i rlly did just kms. its prob rlly not smth that i should, or smth that i have the right to think abt. i mean my lifes not all that terrible ig, some ppl out there have it worst. but then again i feel like im rlly... » Continue Reading
god im so tired and my dad tells me to get off my ass and get dressed to go to walmart to get myself out of the house somehow. im ok with that ig i didnt rlly care. then all of a sudden he changes his mind and i have to go to the park with them and my brother and his mom. not like im some SUPER loser that never goes outside or anything (tho thats not 2 far off,,) i just rlly dont feel like it. i d... » Continue Reading
me when my dad asks me whats wrong and why ive been "mopey" the past few days even tho ive always been like this and i just tell him its bc ive been feeling "lazy" and that its nothing more even tho its literally everything atp and doesnt help im grounded so i cant even use anything to distract myself besides my laptop and he says that he'll unground after a month and its been a month and everyth... » Continue Reading