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god im so tired and my dad tells me to get off my ass and get dressed to go to walmart to get myself out of the house somehow. im ok with that ig i didnt rlly care. then all of a sudden he changes his mind and i have to go to the park with them and my brother and his mom. not like im some SUPER loser that never goes outside or anything (tho thats not 2 far off,,) i just rlly dont feel like it. i dont rlly like goin to parks. theres more of a chance ill see someone i know, and i look like shit bc i havent washed my hair in 2 days. ik its not healthy to constantly wash ur hair but idc. mine gets gross easily. that all kinda pissed me off tho. i had to just sit there while he goes off talking to his wife or gf or whatever she is and its just annoying. mayb im being overdramatic. i dont see why i couldnt have just stayed in tho. ive been genuinely feeling so tired and worthless and like deppressed or whatever other words like i cant rlly do much abt it, then my dad wants me to talk abt it with him. but then he'll get mad if i say that a part of it is bc of me being grounded and literally not being allowed to do things to distract myseld, or he'll just tell me to toughen up. like what u just want me to tell u straight up IM GONNA KMS or smth like no i dont think thats what u want to hear so im keeping it to myseld. yea