Movies have a solid start and finish (if it’s a good one) and I’m worried about how my movie ends. I think it’s sometimes concerning how I interpret my life as ‘story concepts’. Whether I experience betrayal, new love interests, reoccurring characters, I still wonder how my movie ends. My movie, my season finale, whatever. It’s funny bc the other day I realized if an inconvenience ever happens, I... » Continue Reading
I love reading what ppl have to say when no one listens, that feels like this website. Too many ppl are posting all at once so I doubt mine would get any traction, but it’s still fun :) I♥️Bloggin » Continue Reading
i see you, don't think i don't. stop that. i don't like thst. there was a time when i would've been flattered by u stalking me, but i'm in my right state of mind now, so stop. and fuck you lmao. anyways yall go follow my instagram: esme.aol bad bitches only, i hate men so i wont accept ur follow request thank u vrry much. :3 » Continue Reading
-- At least no one I know. This shit is like my public diary. 'diary' is kind of a cringe word to be using as a 20-year-old, but you get the vibe. It's like a digitally vandalized billboard you'd see on your way to work, red spray paint and all. I don't give a fuck what I say on here, because no one is going to search for it, and I love it. mmmm idk, maybe like 3 (??) people know of its existenc... » Continue Reading
Crying abt Everything Everywhere All at Once because of how much I relate to the daughter. From her relationship with her mom, to her saying “I’m tired”. Just being tired. I’m tired. https://youtu.be/-wSuacbzpRY?si=PgcXsA_3JYtBmxDG » Continue Reading
I feel so empty-headed. If I'm not in school to get my degree and earn myself some money, then the only other option is to work some soulless job I hate and have a life where I know I won't be happy (bro am I even happy now???). The only thing I think can save me rn is a sugar daddy (a dilf). This Is The Way. Or maybe just to have someone to take care of me. it's the only solution. maybe like a li... » Continue Reading
did u know the stages are non-linear??? you can go through all of these emotions in random order when you experience loss. I think I'm in my depression era. Honestly, this breakup was bound to happen... I tried communicating when I'd ask for update/warning texts and would get hours of silence even when I would ask if he'd like to be otp with me; tbh I don't think he was ever committed to actually ... » Continue Reading
i guess this is a rant. couldn't get him off my mind. Listening to Pink in The Night by Mitski because of a Fleabag edit I saw that made me incredibly sad. I love Fleabag. I showed him Fleabag. Anyway, here's the link to the TikTok because I love it so much: https://www.tiktok.com/@yearningfreak/video/7154954051409513770?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7266558021490296366 It somehow hel... » Continue Reading
I know my bf (ex :(() won't find this sooo this post is about him. I guess this is like a goodbye to my feelings for him. they haven't gone away completely, but from the way our relationship was going (lagging on each other constantly and barley making time for each other) I couldn't imagine us going on any further. Nevermind the fact that we were long distance, but you would imagine for a long di... » Continue Reading
I am so ready to end things. I feel like I'm not getting enough attention, at least not as much as he used to. Plus, we're in a long distance thing, so why wouldn't I want to be with you 24/7??? wdym you've been playing games these past couple of hours??? you couldn't shoot a text???? are you deadass my guy?? I've already asked for him to notfi me if he's gonna be busy w something, or if he's goi... » Continue Reading
Omfg I love my fucking boyfriend. I’d do anything to be with him 24/7 even if I gotta live/hide under his bed. He wouldn’t even have to hold me hostage, I’d already have stockholm syndrome. But I’d still put up a fight because it’s more fun that way…🙄🤚 I’m just so in love with him and I’m glad I’ve found someone who matches my energy, even if it looks unhealthy to others. I’d let him kidnap me in... » Continue Reading