I love movies, they make me feel alive

Movies have a solid start and finish (if it’s a good one) and I’m worried about how my movie ends. I think it’s sometimes concerning how I interpret my life as ‘story concepts’. Whether I experience betrayal, new love interests, reoccurring characters, I still wonder how my movie ends. My movie, my season finale, whatever. 

It’s funny bc the other day I realized if an inconvenience ever happens, I end up annoyed and ask myself something along the lines of, “how does this have any plot relevance.” Or if I’m ever crying out to god or for an ounce of guidance from the universe I tell myself, “not this story arch again, it’s so drawn out, why do you keep finding yourself here?”. 

Anyways, the reason why I’m writing this post in the first place is because I watched ‘I Saw The Tv Glow’ and felt so emotional. I love that feeling a good movie gives you.

I live for this.

I live for being seen on my TV screen. 

Even if the story isn’t mine, I could still relate to the feeling of wanting to be your true self and free yourself from the life you were given. 

I have so much I want to do and I don’t know if I’ll accomplish them. I have my whole life ahead of me, and I’m so scared of wasting it. 

I’m so scared.

Please, if you could take anything away from this blog post, please watch I Saw The TV Glow.