ive been trying really hard to make new friends but ive been having such a hard time with it. i feel like a specimen that people just look at and dont really get to know me, because i dont know myself. if you want to be friends with me please let me know! its so hard for me to reach out and put myself out there. and after breaking up, i think it will be more difficult for me because it will remind... » Continue Reading
i'm graduating in like 2 weeks? a month ago i was so anxious but right now i'm feeling okay about it. now i'm just exhausted from my classes and want it to be over :pppp i'm really proud of myself because i've had maybe the worst year of my life so far yet i'm still here! my therapist says i'm resilient which is nice to hear. i'm doing things for myself by myself and enjoying everything. i'm grate... » Continue Reading
i keep getting too high to comprehend my surroundings and wake up high the next day. my lungs hurt LOL will probably take a t break slightly different-- learning to have fun, enjoy myself, and know what i like. haven't really had the chance before and i feel my moods (even if they are negative) have plateaued or are just not as negative. it might also be the sunshine but i'd like to think that my... » Continue Reading
Happy Trans Day of Visibility! A day of celebration is very necessary, especially in the current state of politics and the like. Existing shouldn't be a political stance, yet it is. But existing as a trans person is a revolutionary act. love you all. stay safe, stay yourself, stay true. » Continue Reading
breakups are difficult; especially when you can see the other person seemingly doing better without you. it hurts to see someone move on so quickly, but there is nothing i can really do to stop that person from causing me pain other than distance. i dont want to be distant, but i have to for myself. i guess that is part of life. my therapist told me i have to hope for better for myself. otherwise... » Continue Reading