hi , is been a while since i ve complained how bad i m feeling every day . i ve lost a lot of my memories and everything feels like a dream more like a nightmare. i don t know why i m still alive i think i m just to afraid that it will be worse on the other side to try another atempt . a lot of things happened but some things just never change i gues . maybe this is my fate and this is the way i w... » Continue Reading
Its been a Decade since i have this illness , depression , i don t know how i still survived and how i m still alive but it feels like is eating my whole life and is getting worse. I tryed to kill myself many times , i lost the count , and i survived . I just wander how was i before i had this illnes i just can t imagine because almost my whole life was like this . I just wish i never existed , o... » Continue Reading
Today i worked all day at a painting that end up looking horible and 30 minutes ago we had an ague wich she ended up wining because i had to let her . Now i m just feeling sick because of my illnes and i want to end my life and my chest hurts because of my depression. » Continue Reading
today it was valentine's day at first i didn t know that today was this day and i was thinking it will be tomorrow but then i find out . in the beginning it was nice but then i started to feel left out from everyone and everything . i decided to ignore the feeling but then i was feeling i need to hang out and eat something like a fruit tart but i didn t wan » Continue Reading