Its been a Decade since i have this illness , depression , i don t know how i still survived and how i m still alive but it feels like is eating my whole life and is getting worse. I tryed to kill myself many times , i lost the count , and i survived . I just wander how was i before i had this illnes i just can t imagine because almost my whole life was like this . I just wish i never existed , o... » Continue Reading
Today i worked all day at a painting that end up looking horible and 30 minutes ago we had an ague wich she ended up wining because i had to let her . Now i m just feeling sick because of my illnes and i want to end my life and my chest hurts because of my depression. » Continue Reading
today it was valentine's day at first i didn t know that today was this day and i was thinking it will be tomorrow but then i find out . in the beginning it was nice but then i started to feel left out from everyone and everything . i decided to ignore the feeling but then i was feeling i need to hang out and eat something like a fruit tart but i didn t wan » Continue Reading