There's been many situations in my life where this rings true. From the outside it's always so easy to find a solution (even multiple) to fix a problem that seems to be so prevalent. How can you allow someone to tell you one thing and their actions always contradicts whatever has been said. But whenever you're around that person it's like everything in the world just seems right. Like all matters ... » Continue Reading
It's been forever since I have made the choice to talk about how I'm actually feeling. I feel like there's always something stopping me from being completely genuine. I'm going through that phase again where I'm missing everyone who I've let go of in order to be a healthier person mentally but damn it sucks. I know you're not really supposed to go back and read old messages but when I feel like th... » Continue Reading
Things always like to take a turn for the worst. I thought I was past a lot of past trauma but I guess I faked being okay a little too well and even convinced myself. It's hard not to sit and dwell a lot of the time but for the most part I'm too busy to even focus on myself. When I do have the time.. I don't make the effort I should. Slow progress is still progress but what do you do when you're s... » Continue Reading
The one year I actually allow people to talk me into do something for my birthday everything falls through. This is exactly why I don't like to do anything. You can't be upset if you have nothing planned. I just wish something would go right for once. I guess it's not that big of a deal because there's always next time. I still don't know what I'm looking for and it's driving me crazy. » Continue Reading
The time to procrastinate is finally over. I feel good about getting things done and working towards a better tomorrow. On the other hand, something tells me I'm probably going to go MIA for just a couple of weeks. I'm not really finding what I'm looking for (or even know what it is). Even just a few days would be nice. I just want to be happy. » Continue Reading
I don't know what I'm looking for. I'm really missing a ton of toxic people that used to be in my life and the urge to reach out is starting to really bother me. I know it's in my best interest not to but it's hard to find someone who really truly understands you inside and out. There's so much I overshare about to hide the fact that I have a ton of shit that I never and probably will never be abl... » Continue Reading
I totally forgot Tumblr was a thing again. Between this place and Tumblr I feel like I'm thrown back into middle/high school. I finally found the thing that will suck up the last of the free time I have. It's nice to finally reconnect with some part of myself. » Continue Reading
I can't believe I'm getting my first tattoo this Saturday and it's a basic butterfly. I don't think it's the worst idea but I'm not the most hype about it either. Is it bad that I don't care that much enough to stop it or say no? I get the idea of matching tattoos but oh my god I can't believe I let her talk me into this. At least it'll be red? LOLLL » Continue Reading
Social battery is at 0 again. Boredom is slowly creeping in but there's so much I can do. I just want to stay in my room for the rest of the week but we all know responsibilities are always calling. Feeling empty but what's new. » Continue Reading
I don't know what to do with all the free time I'm going to get over the next month. I want to try to fill it with healthy stuff like walks or even just reading more or something. Maybe even set a few more goals for myself. The hardest part is dealing with the chronic body pain and I really don't know how I'm going to handle that... 3 years strong and it feels just as bad as the first day with no ... » Continue Reading