I rarely allow myself to take in a deep breath and really allow everything to sink in when I feel happy or excited or euphoric. Instead I find myself dwelling on the melancholy events in my life and replaying them in my head until my eyes fill with tears and my heart begins to feel hollow. I blame myself for the hardships that I have faced in my life, I continuously beat myself up wondering if I ... » Continue Reading
There are days where I feel as though the walls are caving in on me, days where my heart aches and an overwhelming feeling of doom swallows me whole. On days like that I wish for nothing but to lay in my bed and cry until my tears turn to blood. I wish to lay until the sheets of my bed cling to my skin and slowly become one with my body. I wish that I could control my emotions like most people but... » Continue Reading
For as long as I can remember I've always wondered what it would be like to be the girl with the bright blue eyes and the golden blonde hair that glistens in the sunlight, the girl that never has to think twice about what she does in case someone calls her weird or stupid or violently tells her to shut up. The girl that can easily get the attention of everyone in the room without even trying. Unfo... » Continue Reading