you came uninvited with promises of fire and flesh and left nothing but memories i can't remember wanting i gave you room thinking you were the answer to a question i hadn't yet learned to ask but you made your home in places i didn't offer left fingerprints on the walls and dirt on the floors i scrubbed myself clean of every touch every taste unt » Continue Reading
it's not quite the feeling of being lonely, but the feeling of being worth so little, or the loss of trust and security in the words of others. it's a horrid feeling. sometimes it's okay. other times it creeps up. » Continue Reading
y'aaaaaaall i'm heavily debating downloading marvel rivals on my craptop so i can gift myself some of these new skins. for context, my playstation is in a different city right now and i neeeeed these skins!!! i'm in love with those new pastel ones, especially magik, invisible woman, and psylocke. love playing those characters ESPECIALLY! magik's new millennia might was made for me. and i loooooove... » Continue Reading
today may be one of the longest days i will have this semester. four projects are due this week, and i have to get at least two of them completed in order to be "on track". i crave comfort food sooooo much right now. we are running on empty. » Continue Reading
today is a day of overwhelm. i have a lot on my mind and even more on my plate. everything is due this week, i have to catch up on commissions, and to make matters worse, i can't get out of my own head. i heard some things. they hurt me. but they shouldn't. i should just be able to move on, i don't get why i can't just do that. your words lost their weight when i was told that you moved on about a... » Continue Reading
i sat down to write, but to be honest, i'm not sure what to say right now. i feel all sorts of emotions right now. lonely, content, relaxed, and anxious. i just want to write for the sake of writing. » Continue Reading
i think i'm addicted to reliving my childhood, since it went by way too fast and i grew up way too young. lately i've been filling my amazon and ebay wishlists with tamagotchis, pixel chix, calico critters and littlest pet shops. i'm watching bratz and barbie movies, trying to collect all the barbie movies on disc. and i looooove rewatching the old youtube videos that i was addicted to. i can't st... » Continue Reading
the worst part about a disorganized attachment style is the way it switches so quickly. one minute it's obsession, and the next, withdrawal. both are bad, and both i try to stop. i've been working through my disorganized attachment workbook lately, to try and heal it. but lately i don't feel good about myself. i'm not good enough for it all, i can't do everything by myself, i don't have the time a... » Continue Reading
not a bad day today :) i’m currently sitting in the tub reading my book and drinking my wine, with rose petals, bath salts and tea lights floating in my bath or clinging to my legs. my mother bought me some winter wear, and i was able to find something i wanted for a long time for much cheaper than normal! i haven’t felt this relaxed in a while. » Continue Reading
wish me luck y'all! my midterm is coming up really soon, and i hope i've crammed enough to be able to convince the professor that i'm smart... lol. » Continue Reading
hi all- wondering if anyone has taken an essay exam at all, and if they have anything that might help me study for this thing tonight! mostly, i'm just excited to crash in bed immediately after class is done. i've written outlines for the questions that may be on the midterm, but i'm AWFUL at memorization! help a girl out! » Continue Reading