I met her ten years ago. Last call at a hotel bar in a city I couldn't pronounce. Her lips dripped with the chrism so striking you could see it across the room. She had beauty marks on her right cheek and a martini clutched, with a single sip left between two fingers. I asked her if I could sit on the empty stool next to her. Her eyes rose, slowly, her smirk unnerving as if she'd met me before. I ... » Continue Reading
"You really seen me high and gone everyday, knowing that I was cutting, listened to my breakdowns, saw me leaving my house every night to see a stranger. You saw me downing bottles and doing bumps, talking about how I wanted to kill myself. You knew that I kept disappearing for months at a time, sleeping all the time, failing my classes and skipping. And yet all you said was, "oh that's just » Continue Reading
After all the compliments die down, the high i feel is fading away, they boys stop texting me, my friends are asleep, and I'm left with myself. I don't know who I am. I don't like who I am. I am a faceless, unlikeable chameleon. -@peachesnwh0res » Continue Reading
god. How badly I want to grab you by the neck and passionately kiss you, I want to steal all your breath. Taste you. Feel you. I crave it all so much. How badly I want to push you into my wall and climb up your body cupping your face. One day you'll be coming after me.. -@nywheny » Continue Reading
I am no saint, My footprint on this earth has been that of a thief Yet I wish that people would pray to me And just like every deity I won't answer. -@dessa4444 » Continue Reading
"Do you sh?" No, I never cut myself. But I like the feeling of pinching my skin, until little drops of blood come out. I like turning the water temperature flaming hot, or ice cold, until my skin turns dark red and my lips start getting blue. I like how endless days of emptiness start turning into physical pain. I like getting barely 4 hours of sleep and being awake all night, cryin » Continue Reading
I'll never understand the rationale of being mean to something so small. I'm twenty now. I so solemnly swear to try my best to be a better parent to my inner child. But there is a terrible beast that's in the way. Ruining things. Ruining everything. If I am to be happy I've got to defeat it; This anger. But as it turns out... » Continue Reading
I will always be my mother, no matter how hard I try. I put many miles between us. I cut my hair, change my clothes, wash my skin to remove her, but she still lingers. I peel off my flesh to scrub her out from underneath, but she's in my bones. She is under every fingernail, in every pore. No matter how much I pull and prod at my face, no matter how many shapes » Continue Reading
I'm so dangerously, desperately bored. I'm sitting in a park wishing some stranger would come up and punch me. I want to be brutally reminded of my own mortality. I want to shed teeth and blood, want the taste of life in my mouth, gush of copper and salt. I want to be set on fire. I want to break and hurt and heal, want a fresh ne » Continue Reading
I was reading something the other day about how when you were born into a burning house you think the whole world is on fire. but it's not. Well when I was born I was placed gently to the arms of an open flame. I felt as the heat redden to my skin and rose my cheeks. but I still played in bonfires and when I went to the beach vacations in volcanoe » Continue Reading
I brought a knife to a gun fight. I do not intend on losing, I will slash and slice, kick and writhe, I will dodge bullets and slice skin. you will fail. I shall not, just you wait, years of rage bubble beneath my skin and I am more than ready to release it. - a rage fueled tango -@silly_littleguy » Continue Reading
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