everyone will have a version of myself that they think i am; and this is based on the perspectives that they've grown up with. I never really realized until recently - that no matter how hard i try to live up to that expectation i put on myself; that i wont ever live up to it. » Continue Reading
Ive been on this app called "sober" and ive been clean for at least 3-4 weeks (i lost count) clean from s/h. I always feel like im going to relapse with every little minor inconvenience i have. But I feel like its a buildup of shit ive bottled up and kept away and its creeping up to me.I hate that im self aware that i have an unhealthy mindset rn and dont get wrong, i do try my best to do the bare... » Continue Reading
Im new to this website and im honestly gonna use it to vent since i bottle everything up anyways. I do the same thing with the "sober" app. I find it beautiful that people can connect with each other through the same experiences they've been through; but with different perspectives. It comforts me because when im on websites or apps like these, i dont feel alone. I love receiving advice from diffe... » Continue Reading
i sometimes find that music is my escape because it helps me express myself in a form of a certain song. i find it comforting and sad depending on which song i listen to sometimes because ive attached a certain memory to it; same with people. I attach myself to these songs so much that when i listen to specific songs i feel a deep pull in my chest because of the nostalgia and memory that came with... » Continue Reading