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My 10 Book Ratings For February 2024

Category: Books and Stories

Romancing Mr. Bridgerton by Julia Quinn 9/10 ๐Ÿ’– Cruel Seduction by Katee Robert 9/10  ๐Ÿ’– Radiant Sin by Katee Robert 8/10 โค๏ธ Learn My Lesson by Katee Robert 9/10 ๐Ÿ’– Sick Boys by Clarissa Wild 9/10 ๐Ÿ’– Court of The Vampire Queen by Katee Robert 10/10 ๐Ÿ˜ Haunting Adeline by H.D. Carlton  8/10 โค๏ธ Hunting Adeline by H.D. Carlton  0/10 ๐Ÿคฎ Great Goddesses by Nikita Gill 10/10 ๐Ÿ˜ Twisted Devotion by Poppy St. Jo... » Continue Reading

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Addiction And It's Many Faces

Category: Life

I never saw myself as someone that could ever have an addiction to anything, I just assumed my father's addict gene passed me by. It wasn't until recently that I realized that the internet had become my addiction. I started panicking as soon as I couldn't find my phone and waste an entire day just doom scrolling. I wasn't leaving the house or making friends. I had just given up on existing outside... » Continue Reading

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Life is Settling

Category: Life

For the first time, I feel like my adult life is finally settling in to where it should be. It's warm outside, the wind is blowing, birds are chirping, and I'm sitting in my  computer room. Not my mom's, not my aunt's, not my friend's moms, mine.  I feel peaceful. Content. It's odd that something as simple as this can make me happy, but it does. I know that part of it is largely due to the change ... » Continue Reading

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Excusing Myself From The Table

Category: Life

Lately I feel as if the internet has become one giant table that everyone is sitting at, but no one is eating. Like it's a giant family fight and everyone is constantly shouting about a thousand different things and the food is getting cold. and since everyone is shouting about everything all the time, it all gets mushed together, like when you squish to colors of play dough together and you can't... » Continue Reading

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My Younger Self Was Stronger

Category: Life

Now an adult, I’ve noticed that I’m so much more sensitive than I was as a teenager. I care so much about what people think and what they say that I let it stunt me and keep me from trying to do the things I love. I’m so afraid of rejection. Teenage me was so much tougher. Strong, resilient, with an “I don’t give a fuck” attitude. That kid didn’t care about what anyone had to say. Ever. I dont how... » Continue Reading

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Repairing Burnt Bridges

Category: Life

My father and I lost contact when I was 12. We didn’t speak again until I was 23. It was a complicated situation but I never really knew just HOW MUCH his absence affected me until we got back in touch and started mending our relationship. I knew it hurt, and I was so sad and broken hearted. I miss him everyday but I never really understood how much it was taking from my overall happiness. I never... » Continue Reading

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Mortality and all its friends

Category: Life

I often find myself having more and more panic attacks about my own mortality. It’s gotten to the point that it gets in the way of living my life. Since highschool ive felt like death itself were chasing me, and that if I ran far enough I could escape it. I’m so afraid of death. I’m afraid of ceasing to exist and yet I also fear never ending eternity. Why? Why do I feel this way? I feel so trapped... » Continue Reading

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Nostalgia and Melancholy

Category: Life

I’ve reached an age where it’s finally sunken in for me that my childhood is gone and I can never go back. Though politics and other government centered places had more issues, life itself just felt…happier. I miss so much, I wish I could have it back. I didn’t appreciate it when I was younger. I miss the internet not being SO prevalent in our lives. I miss cute flip phones and sidekicks. I miss c... » Continue Reading

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