I have been carrying a notebook around with me for a little while now I am not sure why I suppose its too stay off my phone well it was that to start. Then the more I wrote the more I realize I under appreciate the events that happen in my life. I hang out with a lot of amazing people I see and speak to randoms I think have a story to tell as I walk by and they almost always have something to say.... » Continue Reading
I've been pretty depressed lately being alone like really and truly alone this time is getting to me. But I cant help but tell my self its an excuse that I am here sitting in the room I can barely walk in and its all because I am living life as if ill get another one when this one falls apart. I fantasize about running away and going somewhere anywhere. I fantasize about moments of peace and momen... » Continue Reading
I am just kind of sitting here with an urge to write I am not sure what it is I want to get off my chest but I know that if I just sit to think about it would consume me. I can feel it in my stomach a bad energy that I myself put their maybe I was saving it for later or maybe I accidently dropped it there when my head got too full. I sit here waiting for a game to download and for my music to soun... » Continue Reading
Lately I cant seem to understand my own emotions. One second I would be dancing in my pjs to a song I like and the next I would be so anxious I almost vomit. I think, I think too much about things that don't matter and that scares me. If life is getting to tough to handle now I am scared for my future. My family thinks I am smart and my friends think so too and the pressure to have a good future a... » Continue Reading
Its been a couple days since I've been home it feels like somethings missing. I am rewriting this god knows how many times trying to find a way to express how I feel. It gives me comfort thinking that whatever I write here stays here. What ever I write here has a place to belong for as long as I don't delete it. I write poetry but I cant just make my problems sound pretty anymore and its getting t... » Continue Reading