"Eating Luci's Wallet"
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11:29 School. Had math. It was tolerable, as Gir taught me everything already. Tonight I must find flowers. Tomorrow they will compete. Plain, wild survival is uncomfortable. Not much to eat, not many places to be. But I like it a lot more over school. Over "work". I would rather not play in the system that fails me. The cold is uncomfortable, but its much more tolerable when im hanging around the... » Continue Reading
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6:45 I had walked my hour walk to school in 40 minutes and now hide in the bleachers behind the field. Friday I have a field trip. Hopefully. My mother is meant to be chaperoning, but she has been threatening with not going. It's cold, but it's comfortable. The New York bus is here. I wish it could take me outta here. The sun rises from south of east. Familiar birds around. The crows aren't up jus... » Continue Reading
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Something is wrong with that mourning dove. I hate the cars. 06:56 I had fallen back asleep and was awoken by yelling. It's 7:25 and we have to go. I have "an important test today". I was reminded of that when my mother lashed out on me, calling me a lazy ass, threatening to break my headphones with a hammer. She misgendered me over and over. I was going to go. I don't want to miss this test, I do... » Continue Reading
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My sleep was ever so rudely interrupted by my alarm clock at 6:30. At first disoriented - I do not normally leave my phone so far - I rush to turn it off and return to my bed. Daylight savings was yesterday, and it was very dark out. I open my window. Birdsong and movement of cars. The sky lightens quickly. The crows have awakened just now. I feel good, I had the best sleep that ive had in a while... » Continue Reading
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It's 03:32 and I dont feel so good. Nauseous and disoriented, I went to pee Im really thirsty. Maybe those 6 chicken tenders and 2 cups of pistachios did something. Maybe I am sick. Most likely, it's just cramps. We'll have to find out when im better awake. » Continue Reading
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I wake up with my back and neck muscles sore. Didn't know sleeping was such hard work. I tuck my arms in under me, and, for the past couple days, curl my head in too in a way. I try to avoid it because im uncomfortable all day afterwards, and it doesn't help my posture. But somehow it keeps happening. I promised Gir I will vacuum before she comes here. So I need to do that. But not now. 08:35 I to... » Continue Reading
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I woke up at 6:30 to my alarm. I turn it off, but it does nothing, because I keep resting. I got out of bed at 7:40. I drank my oolog raspberry tea - it ended up really watered down, and I think I wasted the bag. I used my soap, and it was nice. I put on my green button up and my hat, the concert is today. I'm starting to understand that to sucessfully escape the deathly grip of the system, you ne... » Continue Reading
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The field trip went well. And I talked to snufkin, we have our things figured out now. I got a tin of ceylon black rose tea and a free honey-oat-scented soap sample. They both smell lovely. I also have a plantable business card with mystery seeds, and some nice stickers. I'm brewing the tea right now - the one packet I traded with my friend. It's raspberry oolong and it smells neat. Me and my pa... » Continue Reading
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9:07 Came to school late, but didn't fully skip english. I'm wearing the animal ears to school, and to be honest, I am terrified. Any coolness I had around had gone away. I feel like a chronically online weirdo, especially because this does not suit my style at all. I quite dislike them. But I must do this, I must do this for my friend, and I must not let the assumptions of assumptions affect the ... » Continue Reading
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Legend was in my dream last night, interested but dismissive as always. But this time, I barely find it worth mentioning at all. I consider reaching out to ___, but I don't know if they'll be interested. They did seem to make it clear that our friendship is pretty done. I'd say they may be interested in being friends now, since the problem is gone really, and ___ was a very nice friend. But on the... » Continue Reading
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09:07 Skipping school, again and again and again This time, it feels good. The time was moved back an hour, and the first thought in my head was, why are we still doing this? If I know school does not benefit me outside of giving me a diploma? And after a couple minutes of bored researching of ways out, I discovered the GED. I found a college in norway, and a handful in the UK, that accept it inst... » Continue Reading
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Not sure whats going on with tulpa. He doesnt really come out. said he needs his time. Punk concert went good. Stessful. I dont trust the dude I went with, French. French is nice, but he avoids wihthout saying and judges without considering. He looks up to my style and looks down on my being. He was the original Legend, without the compicated stress. His girlfriend Kat was there too. shes cool. K... » Continue Reading
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