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My advice to new musicians and why I write

Category: Music

I started when I was around 10 years old. I’d just be walking around or having a bath and I’d make up a tune and basically make words up to that tune as I was going along. I always enjoyed doing that. I remember occasionally saying fuck in a song I was making and getting so high of the feeling.  And since then I started writing them down, and I realised that the words flowed so nicely, and I notic... » Continue Reading

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I seriously wouldn't be asking if there was any other way

Category: Life

As many of you have read recently I've been going through a shitstorm with depression, and my mother's abuse. She even stole money from me.  I made the difficult decision after a therapy session to cut ties, call the phone company and say to block the number for good. But this leaves an issue. I have £6 in my bank account, a car off the road and no way to get to a job if I could even get one.  My ... » Continue Reading

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You are not alone.

Category: Life

I know what it's like to struggle alone. I know what it's like to think no one will care, or even listen. And I know the pain of wondering when the fuck it's all gonna end.  And throughout all my struggles all I've wanted is someone to talk to, be myself with and not worry about judgment or fear of losing a friend.  If you're struggling please reach out. Not just to me but to organisations in your... » Continue Reading

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"The Poison On Your Tongue" First rock style song I've written in a long time.

Category: Music

Verse 1: Separate, sifting through my memories, I can't concentrate. Reliving the fear and my past mistakes, but you ask me to forgive. But how do I begin? You ask me why I feel the way I do, you ask me about the nightmares and the things I hear in my own head. Then you tell me it'll go, if I just talk and make amends, but I've tried it before, there's nothing left to do.  Pre Chorus:  Its my fear... » Continue Reading

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Ramblings of a Sad Man

Category: Life

"Make peace with the past so you can move forward in the future." Can I see this working with divorce? Yes. Bad relationships? Yes. Even a past of drug use or being an alcoholic. But can I see this working with childhood trauma? No.  I was a defenseless, scared, scarred child. Yes I will be angry. Yes I will cry and yes I will hurt. I will not forgive and make peace about trauma I had no part in. ... » Continue Reading

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'Decay' Written by me.

Category: Writing and Poetry

Verse: Today I feel a weight on my shoulders. The same pain I've carried for years. A hurt in my heart, a hurt in my brain. This is something I can't quite comprehend. The pain is like decay, it eats at my heart, my soul, my brain. The fear I feel, the scare I express is something many don't get. The decay I feel makes me fall apart, I don't know how to cope with my broken heart. A loss of a paren... » Continue Reading

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'Schizophrenic Fit' Written by me.

Category: Writing and Poetry

Calling out, from afar. Can you hear them? Standing there, really far, can you see them? Screaming loud, I'm not proud of the way I react to you. The things they say, touch my soul. Make me walk this dead end road. Scrams and cuts, self inflicted by the pain you caused. Let me breathe, let me cry. Don't make me pretend I'm fine. This isn't normal, this isn't fair. I can sense the smell of death. P... » Continue Reading

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'Schizophrenia' Written by me.

Category: Writing and Poetry

Verse: Tell me you see them when they follow me? Do you hear their screams as they stop me from my sleep? Do you hear the threats on how they will hurt you? Does it bother you the things they say? Why do you run from me? Why can't you stay? Why do you make me feel that I'm not okay to be around? Does the way I feel, the way I see, scare you so much you can't even be here for me in my reality? I be... » Continue Reading

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'Intimate Death' Written by me.

Category: Writing and Poetry

Did you watch me cry and smile? Did you watch me cut and laugh? Did you tell yourself it's a phase, he'll get over it and it'll all be okay. Did you tell your friends he's fine? When you should have seen Im broken inside? Did you find the knife I used and just not care about that blood dried upon the tip? Did you not question when I walked so long, or why I climbed a tree with nooses I had strung?... » Continue Reading

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'The End' Written by me.

Category: Writing and Poetry

Verse 1: I'm tired and wound up feeling for the emotions that I'm missing. Looking in this dark room but I can't find any meaning. I sit here silent, begging, please somebody help me. Bring a torch or a hand, I can't do this anymore. Please. Can you help me find the end to this sadness? Chorus: I don't wanna find the end in the form of a river or a rope on a tree. I'm scared of living and I'm scar... » Continue Reading

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'Goodbye' Written by me.

Category: Writing and Poetry

I guess it's time I looked deep in my mind, really release what I'm feeling inside. I look for inspiration, you're all I see. The present and future doesn't matter to me. All I see is you and him, smiles and laughter whilst I sat there so somber and dark. So obvious to the world to see, the bus driver, my lecturer, but you sat there and nah that was normal to see. You claim to care, you claim to s... » Continue Reading

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