today was fun, i went on a date with one of my close friends and it was really fun and he was really sweet, but, i don't think im ready for a relationship anytime soon which im scared to say cause i feel like hes really keen on me. im also really struggling with my sexuality. im not attracted to guys physically, but sometimes i like the attention they give me. its different with girls though, i... » Continue Reading
this is an update to my last blog lol i did the job interview and i hated it, but the lady said i had a good chance of getting it. i hate jobs. but i did also go to school today, my friends where there in the morning but left during the first session, i mostly just read and talked to my mentor. i actually started a new book a few days ago, its Dune. i saw it at the shop and i never knew it was a ... » Continue Reading
this is just a small rant about shit going on in my life, lol i am getting really paranoid about everything, I've been even more depressed than usual and I've been more irritated and aggressive lately. everything is going to shit. i am always on the verge of having a panic attack/meltdown and idk how to stop it... like its really ruining my life. I've tried therapists / psychiatrist's and idk w... » Continue Reading
no one will probably actually read these but i find them kinda fun, for some reason my social life is so complicated currently, i don't know if i actually trust any of my friends, even my best friends. sometimes they really annoy me and it makes me mad, but then the next day ill be fine? its confusing, i grew up with barely any real friends but now im older it just seems to be getting worse, i hav... » Continue Reading