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today was fun, 

i went on a date with one of my close friends and it was really fun and he was really sweet, but, i don't think im ready for a relationship anytime soon which im scared to say cause i feel like hes really keen on me. 

im also really struggling with my sexuality. 

im not attracted to guys physically, but sometimes i like the attention they give me. its different with girls though, i feel like everything with them is great and i feel so much more comfortable around girls.