small rant

this is just a small rant about shit going on in my life, lol

i am getting really paranoid about everything, I've been even more depressed than usual and I've been more irritated and aggressive lately. everything is going to shit. 

i am always on the verge of having a panic attack/meltdown and idk how to stop it... like its really ruining my life. I've tried therapists  / psychiatrist's  and idk what to do anymore and its freaking me out thinking about it.

i finally got a job interview for tomorrow but it makes me feel like vomit knowing i actually have to leave the house and do it.