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no one will probably actually read these but i find them kinda fun,
for some reason my social life is so complicated currently, i don't know if i actually trust any of my friends, even my best friends. sometimes they really annoy me and it makes me mad, but then the next day ill be fine? its confusing, i grew up with barely any real friends but now im older it just seems to be getting worse, i have really horrible social anxiety which makes me anxious and not want to go out anywhere public with my friends... and i know that i usually decline plans or back out, but i feel like they hate me for it.. but i can't help it, so i think im just being overly paranoid cause i seem to do that often.
and by hating me for it i mean like, being annoyed cause i never want to hang out.. and i get from their point of view it just looks like i don't like them and don't want to hang out with them but i always try and let them know that isnt the case,
i just can't go into shopping Centre , massive crowds and basically the whole city i live in lol.
sometimes its bearable on weekdays when they aren't so busy but weekends are the death of me.
if anyone has any tips on getting over social anxiety it would be greatly appreciated.
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MistleToad
I have intense social anxiety... I can't even leave the house to go to school. I also don't want to talk to anyone, because of the fear of being judged.
But I also get angry at people in real life for no reason, And I want to isolate myself socially.. But I think it's because I think everyone is judging me.. Whether it's my behavior or appearance.. This triggers anger in me, making me isolate myself more.. This is pure paranoia
But I'm starting to see a psychologist ^^, You should go too... Maybe you will improve mentally!
I think your friends don't hate you, Your mind is self-sabotaging you
i understand what you mean 100%, i was seeing a psych for about a year actually but got signed off around last Christmas. im going to try and get back in eventually but this is all of the free ones so it takes literally years to get into. around 2021 my social anxiety peaked ( probably from the stress of starting highschool and being in a new enviroment + coming out of the covid era where i just stayed inside all day ) but seemed to get a bit better when i switched to an alternative school ( early 2023 ) but lately it seems to get worse again, i think it might be me just getting older and having more responsibilities and its freaking me out lmao
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I understand your pain, Look... I hope you get better and are fine! You will probably have a bright future! Just don't isolate yourself too much.. this will make it much worse.. unfortunately :/
Never give up.
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