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Category: Life
I participated in Kesha's open verse competition on June 5th, and the voting period ended tonight at 11:59 PM CT, I wanted to write a brief reflection of the competition because it has been an exhausting two weeks and I have many thoughts. I'm disappointed in how Smash Music has handled this competition. I have submitted entries to all 3 of their competitions thus far, and I believe each one has b... » Continue Reading
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Category: Parties and Nightlife
Today is actually the 28th, but mentally it is still the 27th for me I took many vodka shots last night, passed out for 2 hours, and now I am finishing the bottle off, not the healthiest thing ever; I certainly don't recommend, but yesterday was the 5 year anniversary of the video i made about my voice disorder on tiktok/youtube, i never expected it to do the numbers it did, nor bring the communit... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I've been a contestant in a popularity contest I never signed up for since birth, this world caters to those who have the loudest voice in the room, the person with the most connections, the one with the pretty face, whatever it may be, there is always criteria to lose to. I want to be liked and accepted by others, but I don't want to be superficial for the sake of attention, even if I want the at... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
People are attracted to confidence, and are drawn away from insecurity. I hate it, it makes my blood boil This world caters to those who are disturbed by the concept of negative emotions, and it pisses me the fuck off. I hate myself and I shouldn't have to pretend I don't just to make other people comfortable. My time on this earth has been uncomfortable as is, I don't want shallow, half-baked, h... » Continue Reading
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Category: Friends
Some people are easier to like than others, I wish I were less difficult to put up with All I have to share are negative feelings and thoughts, and maybe that's why people don't like me. My friends pretend it doesn't bother them, but I can't help but feel their life force slowly being drained the longer I remain in their proximity, it might be best if I keep to myself. I yearn so badly to be conne... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
"A home is a house with a heart." I have a family, but they don't quite feel like mine. I am surrounded by those I share blood with, and still I feel lifeless. I spend so much time second-guessing my gut and my heart. I spend so much time pointing an invisible barrel at myself for burdens I did not choose to carry, and I will continue to endure unforeseen consequences to reacting in defiance. I wi... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I haven't made a blog post on here in about a year, I keep meaning to be more active but I find it hard when I mostly use this website for myself, it would be nice to have a few friends to keep me here but it is what it is. In the meantime, I come with updates on my life. I've been smoking again since January 2025, I have a habit of quitting and then relapsing after about a month, but this time I ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
that is all #KESHASUMMER #BITCH main { margin-top: 0 !important; padding-top: 0 !important; } body { margin: 0 !important; padding: 0 !important; } .profile-pic > img { display: none; } .profile-pic:after { background-image: url("https://file.garden/Zla6ghdy5htmgse0/takizawa"); display: inline-block; content: ""; filter: sepia(40%) saturate( » Continue Reading
Category: Life
"all of my friends are missing again that's what happens when you fall in love you don't have the time, you leave them all behind you tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love" 06/21/2024 @ 7:32:06 AM main { margin-top: 0 !important; padding-top: 0 !important; } body { margin: 0 !important; padding: 0 !important; } . » Continue Reading
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Category: Parties and Nightlife
living like its 2010 06/19/2024 @ 2:19:42 AM main { margin-top: 0 !important; padding-top: 0 !important; } body { margin: 0 !important; padding: 0 !important; } .profile-pic > img { display: none; } .profile-pic:after { » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
my blog is kinda like dog with a blog but instead it is dumb bitch with a blog 06/11/2024 @ 12:27:18 PM main { margin-top: 0 !important; padding-top: 0 !important; } body { margin: 0 !important; padding: 0 !important; } .profile-pic > img { display: none; } .profile-pic:after { background-image: url("https://file.garden/Zla6ghdy5htmgse0/taki » Continue Reading
Category: Life
mental illness n shit time to do it all again 2mrw 06/10/2024 @ 2:20:31 AM main { margin-top: 0 !important; padding-top: 0 !important; } body { margin: 0 !important; padding: 0 !important; } .profile-pic > img { display: none; } .profile-pic:after { background-image: url("https://file.garden/Zla6ghdy5htmgse0/takizawa"); display: » Continue Reading
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