finally a bit calmer at "home". i feel like i can breathe again. besides that, nothing much has changed, the problems are still there and the risk of homelessness is still very real. i do what i can. i have appointments and paperwork every single day, but i'm keeping up and i'm proud of myself for not letting myself go. i'm looking for a job right now. i don't think i'll be able to attend school t... » Continue Reading
i feel like i've barely lived. every move i make is calculated not to bother, not to annoy, to be perfect, to keep the storm from breaking under my roof. i try to be always available, always ready to please, always trying to keep things calm. but it doesn’t work. and i need to make peace with that. nothing you do will ever be enough for a narcissist. so be it. i've » Continue Reading
TW self harm and pitiful whinings consider this entry as an escape for my mind and nothing more, i might laugh a bit later. i just need this out of my fckin chest hi, sorry i haven't been around much. needed to (and still do) take care of so many things lately. i feel so terribly sad and alone. i feel like the whole world is resting on my shoulders, asking me to move faster, do better. i'm being c... » Continue Reading
are they fckin stupid? im already this close 🤏🏼 to live in a van for real, what the hell with the 1500/month for a shoebox? nope nope hmmm NOPE. what is this fckin system like FCK IT FCK EM... like haha naaaur way im doing this shit for the rest of my life just kill me already. what ARE THEY DOING like im just?????? WE CANT HAVE SHIT AND WHY ARE YOU BOMBING KIDS LIKE FUCK YOU FOR REAL. i hope ever... » Continue Reading
how long is this going to take guys just do something, bless her soul her blog has been there for one trillion years can we see SOMETHING ELSE PLEASE » Continue Reading
like please STOP this is all too much. i am NOT ready for the appocalypse, i wanted to be a hero but i thought i could have been a little happy until then. i guess that's what the superpower is there for, there wouldn't be much of a difference before and after the suit then, just fight and struggle all along » Continue Reading
i like my friends within my sight, it's more than enough, socializing is too emotionally taxing and i feel like it's kinda the same for chicken in a henhouse.. you never really see them talking to each other do you. in Brother Bears my totem would've probably been the chicken, yes.. the chicken of serenity or smth like that » Continue Reading