feeling a bit better

finally a bit calmer at "home". i feel like i can breathe again. besides that, nothing much has changed, the problems are still there and the risk of homelessness is still very real. i do what i can. i have appointments and paperwork every single day, but i'm keeping up and i'm proud of myself for not letting myself go. i'm looking for a job right now. i don't think i'll be able to attend school this year unfortunately, there's too much to do anyway.

i came to the realization that this is my life and i have to work my way around it. to accept that it might never get easier, and that i just need to grow stronger. hope is one thing, disillusion is another. i have to think about my well-being first and work hard to get myself out of that hole i was born in, and keep going back to every time i feel overwhelmed. i believe only i can do that, nobody else.