I hate how I constantly never feel wanted. Like the only way I get satisfaction is by getting groomed or something. But I met a really cool guy and he's very nice to me. He's my favorite person I've ever met online. Even if we aren't dating and he'll probably never see me that way I think I like this stranger. I sent him photos of myself and it felt good. He gives me dopamine rushes somehow and I ... » Continue Reading
I miss being a kid. Life was so easy. I didn't have to think, I could be as imperfect as I wanted and still be generally liked. I miss when I could cuddle someone or hold their hand without feeling weird. I miss not feeling sad. Sometimes I think back and cry because I want to be a kid. Maybe im an age regressor though I looked into it and it seems unlikely I think. I wish things could be differen... » Continue Reading
I long for a true love. Every day it's like my heart has a rotten core, where the sick serpents of my school have eaten. Now it's empty. I have so much love to give but no one to share with. And everyone ive ever loved never felt the same or wasnt even real. I cry all the time begging for anything, anyone. I've tried so much to fit in only to go back to my old ways. It's not fair the people around... » Continue Reading