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i only truly, genuinely admire one other gamer for being a gamer, not just being my friend. i can say i'm a gamer and i can say i love video games, but i pale so badly in comparison to my friend. just the sheer number of hours he has in the games he plays overwrites anything i can come up with. i love video games, but he LOVES video games. i think so often about the conditions in which i pursue le... » Continue Reading
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[Connection found.] often, i've been offering myself dreadful thoughts about my inadequacies, about my unhappiness. although, it is weird(?) that even i don't fully subscribe to such melancholy. i am all that i have. every day is affirming that i still want to live even though i don't think i should or am allowed to be. because i can live, i will. if i die, i die. i often fear what may be when the... » Continue Reading
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I shared about my friend's passing to my tattoo artist (TA) while I was being tattooed yesterday. I have mixed feelings about talking about it, because people don't usually like to be told graphic details to protect their peace or whatever, but also, isn't it important to face the truth of things? Death and its many pathways are a part of life. Sheltering ourselves from it as much as we can makes ... » Continue Reading
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okay i actually missed making a blog on the day of my birth; however, i did get to learn more about the details surrounding my friend zair's death and also crying in vc to my friend who was sharing said details. happy birthday to me~. Zair, if this is your birthday gift to me, it is also very on-brand of you. You're too funny, my guy. When I first heard that you died, I almost didn't inquire furth... » Continue Reading
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Woeful and melancholic. I have lost a Dear Friend to suicide. Although the conditions of our friendship were strained and we no longer spoke to one another, death will never be something I would have wanted for him. He is a year older than me, but now I will soon be older than him. I met him soon before he graduated and received his Master's degree, and we celebrated together albeit digitally beca... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
It will be my birthday soon, and this would be the second time I am able(?)/going to write about my birthday passing on SpaceHey. I think I joined this site around my senior year of undergrad, but I couldn't get into writing blogs regularly at the time because I didn't really know what to write to make it meaningful and interesting, so I dropped it because I didn't give a jam about it. I would mis... » Continue Reading
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I started learning Chinese (Simplified) and Japanese this week, following some free courses online. It's been fun choosing to do something besides dreading the job market and feeling guilt while playing video games to fill the time and getting exasperated with the relentless attacks my brain imposes on me. Any who, 你们好. I don't know Japanese yet technically. I mean, there's anime, but I'm still go... » Continue Reading
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Self-Harm. I once read something about how suicide breaks the human (or animal) instinct of self-preservation, and to do so, despite all one's natural instincts to survive, attests to how devastating it is, overriding all Self safety measures. I think self-harming is a few steps before this, but it is still "unnatural". I used to self-harm once upon a time. The experience itself must have been tra... » Continue Reading
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there really is something about socializing that drains the heck out of me. if i think about it more acutely, my eyes feel the most out of the experience. Sunglasses for All will be my global campaign. I think a lot of my social experiences would greatly improve User (me) Experience if I had a darker filter on the world. God, are my eyes tired. 16 August 2025 (10:32 PM) » Continue Reading
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maybe i will die from stress. when i am dealt with upsetting events, i feel such extreme mental anguish and it feels like my brain is about to experience fragmenting explosions around my skull—just about to. i showered right after the most recent experience, washed my hair, and now i feel better. reflecting back on it, my head feels heavy again, but it's probably good i can't recreate the exact fe... » Continue Reading
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The oscillating-self boomerangs once more. Often, when I walk my dog, I wear headphones and sing out loud. In a way, it's an exposure therapy of sorts. I really like singing, but I'm incredibly anxious about being heard. The mathematics to circumvent that is if I do not see anyone who can hear me, then there is no one who can hear me, so I sing as loud as I can to match pitch and tone and intensit... » Continue Reading
Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
Hi all, I watched Superman on Thursday by myself. My friends cancelled because not all of us were able to go together, so it was implied to just watch it on our own accord (whether we wanted to make plans with a smaller group and whatnot). I decided immediately that I would watch it the same day they cancelled, because I like super-hero films and I'm not gonna keep waiting for others! I bought a S... » Continue Reading
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