"Hopeful?"
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Today was a lot. Not in the "many things happened" way but more like "Remember when you did this really bad thing?" way. I felt really guilty because of things that I've done in the past. I wanna convince myself that I'm a good person but i know that I've done way too many bad things to call myself that. Every time i write one of these it always leads back to me needing to change. It's a good thin... » Continue Reading
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Today was alright wasn’t the best but wasn’t the work either. I was tried to hide my SH scars to my mom but i don’t think she even noticed. I got my birthday cake and what i think is my present. Everything is decent i really hope it gets better i really want to get better. » Continue Reading
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Today i started rewatching long story short and honestly i feel much better because of it. Honestly i think SH might’ve been an over reaction but at the same time isn’t always an overreaction? Ive been staring at the cuts all day. Its weird to think that thats something i did to myself for no reason. I honestly hope that my birthday goes well its in 3 days!!!! Nobody in my school is that importan... » Continue Reading
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Today started off normally, drank some coffee, played some games and talked to some friends. While i was going on tiktok i saw something unusual. Another girl blocked me. I didnt even do anything this time. I feel like N has been telling people what happened and now everyone thinks im a mentally ill weirdo deparate for love. In a fit of pure stress and depression i started looking for a way to cut... » Continue Reading
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Today was normal i went to walmart then to my mom’s friends house and it was nice. I really wish more interesting things happened in my life or at the very least a hit of depression so i could write paragraphs about how self destructive i am. » Continue Reading
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Today was interesting because one of my girl classmates asked for my friend’s number. It wasn’t explicitly said that she had a crush on him but i became a detective and found some indisputable evidence that she atleast has a crush on someone. Im so happy for him and i wish that they have a beautiful love story. I called with some friends for 12 hours and it was nice i missed that guy. We played a ... » Continue Reading
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Today was nice i went home early ate some fast food and had some free time. Then i went back to the school for an event celebrating my puerto rican culture and ate all the food. Then i went to chilly's with my parents and ate more food. To end it off i went home and started playing games with a friend that i really missed. I sometimes wish i could fix any mistakes i make with people in my life. N... » Continue Reading
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I had a dream today where i was in a mixed room that was both my bedroom and the classroom and for some reason hazbin hotel started playing on my moniter. In a stage of panic to try and protect my self imagine from the 3 people in the classroom side of the room i try to loud whiper to my friend “hey i hate watching this” then i woke up. I really hope i keep having weird dreams. Today was alright l... » Continue Reading
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I FORGOT AGAIN AGAGAGAGAGDGDH 18th: Tweaking over a charger So today was super duper stressful because it was a spanish presentation that was pretty important. My ipad that had the presentation died so i started asking literally everyone for a charger my classroom, teachers, the other classroom, faculty, etc i was asking everyone and was tweaking out. At the end i was kinda worrying over nothing b... » Continue Reading
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I really wanna write stuff and i saw one of my classmates writing an entire fucking novel i was really jealous because i cant write to that caliber!! The most i write is like a page of writing and i dont even consider it to be that good. I really wanna better my writing capabilities but I really dont get much time to write at all and when i do i either do other things or when i open word i dont ha... » Continue Reading
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Today I woke up and it was oddly peaceful. I dunno what it was maybe the silence, the vacant house or just the placement of items in my house after the party of yesterday but it was just peaceful. I made myself breakfast, played some games, talk to some friends and then I got ready for bed. Obviously theres some parts that i left out because im not too comfortable sharing but to give a hint: Appli... » Continue Reading
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Sorry for not posting yesterday i was really tired 14th: Presentation and guilt I presented the game to my class, and it went decently I hope the teacher liked it. Im starting to play bloons tower defense and i ate some really good food. I keep feeling guilty over things ive done and it spoils any nice moments i have. TODAY: I was forced to clean up my room but i didnt really i just sweeped the f... » Continue Reading
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