November 21st 2025: Wishes.

Today was nice i went home early ate some fast food and had some free time. Then i went back to the school for an event celebrating my puerto rican culture and ate all the food. Then i went to chilly's with my parents and ate more food. To end it off i went home and started playing games with a friend that i really missed. 

I sometimes wish i could fix any mistakes i make with people in my life. Not just the whole N but other ruptures in other wise nice relationships like with N's friend A who i also had a crush on but they were actually more fleshed out then N because it wasnt as desparate as N i actually thought she liked me back and obviously was sad when she rejected me. I wish i could just go up to people and talk about our problems instead of doing it on the internet. Its embarrassing that this is how i communicate with anyone who is in a weird social limbo with me. I wish i could just go up to someone and actually talk to them. The saddest part of it all is that i already burnt the bridge of the only people who i thought could accept me. I really hope literally anyone from that little group will read this and see whatever side of the story im showing. I wish i could be friends with N and that the whole instagram thing never happened. Sadly i know that thats something that will never happen and ill have to live with the bad decision i made. good bye