November 24th 2025: Breaking point TW: SH

Today started off normally, drank some coffee, played some games and talked to some friends. While i was going on tiktok i saw something unusual. Another girl blocked me. I didnt even do anything this time. I feel like N has been telling people what happened and now everyone thinks im a mentally ill weirdo deparate for love. In a fit of pure stress and depression i started looking for a way to cut my arms. After i while i just started sawing my arm with a random kitchen knife i didnt start bleeding but it still hurts. I feel horrible. I am horrible. I do horrible things. I want to stop but i cant. And thats why for right now the knife is my best escape. I really hope literally ANYONE reads this.