I want to love. I want to be loved. those are the things we all want. but its different for me. I want to love so deeply that you connect in ways people cant imagine. I want to buy you things and treat you like no other. I want to give until I have nothing else. but I want to be held. I want to be praised. I want to be told that I'm loved and that you'll stay, even if I'm not perfect. I love so ha... » Continue Reading
Its so hard to understand what I feel sometimes. hard to understand what my wants and needs are. I sometimes wonder if when I find the right person, if they will know more than me. if they will see how much I want to cry. if they would see how much I want to just scream into the night sky. if they would understand how much I wish I could get the comfort I never got until I met them. but I also won... » Continue Reading
I wonder if you can feel me. can you feel my breath still when I think of you. can you feel the pounding of my heart against the cage that holds it in. can you feel my touch as I try to hold onto the thought of you. can you feel my tears run down my face as I realize that you are too far out of my reach. can you feel what I feel? or do you simply block it out so you don't have to face the fact tha... » Continue Reading
I see you in the stars. I see you in the bright moon that shines down on my face through my open window. I see you dancing in the dark night sky as the sounds of the night fill my ears like the most beautiful song. I see you reach out for me as the light shines onto you, steadily creeping onto me. I see the stars. And when I see the stars, I see you. ANd when I see you, I feel whole. And when I fe... » Continue Reading
I have so little to give yet so much I want to give. my heart yearns for you. I want to give all of me until there is nothing left but my lingering soul. even then, I still want to give that to you too. I have so little to give that I'm scared you wont accept what I have to offer. I know its not a lot but I will make it a lot. I will give and give until there is nothing left in this world that yo... » Continue Reading
Kill me with your love. suffocate me when you kiss me. bury me in your chest until we become one. rid me of all my imperfections and of all my pain. take away my ability to think of all the wrong in the world. destroy my heart so that it only longs to be mended by your hands. take away the disease that is loneliness and hold my sickly body until I am cured. suck the poison from my veins and replac... » Continue Reading
My eyes burn from salty tears. my breathing is heavy and fast. curled up in the corner of my room. I sit there and try to think of other things. Then I think of you. what would you do when you see me cry? would you hug me? would you cry with me? would you tell me everything was alright? most importantly, what do I want you do when you see me cry? I can imagine the smell of you filling my brain and... » Continue Reading