Hard to understad

Its so hard to understand what I feel sometimes. hard to understand what my wants and needs are. I sometimes wonder if when I find the right person, if they will know more than me. if they will see how much I want to cry. if they would see how much I want to just scream into the night sky. if they would understand how much I wish I could get the comfort I never got until I met them. but I also wonder if they would let me. would they let me cry? would they let me scream? would they understand that what I need most in the world is something I can not bare to think about? or would they simply turn away. It's so hard to understand. I wish I knew. I know so much yet so little. sometimes, the simplest things are the hardest to understand.