I think for the longest time, I struggled with self-image. I don't resemble my mother (the big father curse, if you will), and people have made that quite clear. I didn't feel comfortable in my own skin, I felt uncomfortable singing, dancing and expressing myself. It's a horrible thing to deal with as a kid, looking at yourself and accepting that you're just not pretty enough; you never had a chan... » Continue Reading
It feels so weird sometimes, being a minority since I was a kid. There's this constant competition I have with myself and representing in everything i do - grades? amazing, personality? agreeable, looks? presentable. There's this constant need to prove to everyone that I AM capable. I just wished sometimes I could do things without that being tied back to how I look or my ethnic group. At times i ... » Continue Reading
Was anyone else a pushover like me?? I can't even remember a time when I didn't overthink about every action I did for others, whether I was happy with it or not. I just knew I HAD to make people like me, and I could do it with my actions. I thought I was fooling everyone, but really I was fooling myself. Because, yeah, people did like me but it was because that was convenient for them, and I made... » Continue Reading
Recently, I've been feeling super empty whenever I go on social media platforms, (except youtube) and it has gotten to the point of realization about my own life. All the content just seems the same; nothing really makes me feel excited or intrigued anymore. In a way, it's been very cathartic to let go of short form content. All I want to do now » Continue Reading