pushover since day 1 ;-;

Was anyone else a pushover like me??

I can't even remember a time when I didn't overthink about every action I did for others, whether I was happy with it or not. I just knew I HAD to make people like me, and I could do it with my actions.

I thought I was fooling everyone, but really I was fooling myself. Because, yeah, people did like me but it was because that was convenient for them, and I made it real convenient. Most of it stemmed from my want to be liked, and the thought that anyone would like me for the person I actually was seemed like such a foreign concept. It ended up with me shutting my true personality off, not even knowing my real personality, and a heck of a lot of blaming. Blaming myself, others, life. 

But through friends and other people, I learned that you did have a value, whether you did anything or not. Your presence is valuable because you occupy space, not just for your abilities.

Anyways, that was my experience. I'm still relearning boundaries, saying no, and doing what I want. If anyone reading this has struggled with it too, I hope you know it gets better.

The only way after hitting rock bottom is up!!!