Sometimes I just....I just feel like im going to have to cry for a long time until I find HIM. Is that why I miss my ex because im in pain? Is it so hard to not feel the want for the men I used to know and love. I wonder if all women feel this way, sometimes I want to text them maybe not be in a relationship with them again but...I also wanna feel him hold me again we don't have to be in love I ju... » Continue Reading
Will I ever find the one who's for me...I have been with a few guys who I thought were the one but none of them were. I picture my future man to truly be for me but..It seems that maybe my expectations are to high maybe he just doesn't exist at all. I want him to be the one who makes me feel, I want him to make me feel like id die without him I need my love for him to be so intense I cant live wit... » Continue Reading
I grew up being seen as a "wild child" my mom truly adored it as she does now it was always a part of me just like my animals they are the only ones that see me and understand me. I grew up with unbrushed bed hair, bare feet, and surrounded by animals they had parts in raising me not in the fairy tail ways but by showing me actions instead of words. As a child other children would see me as strang... » Continue Reading
"Every minute I wasn't with him, I thought of him. My life was now dominated by him and yet there were times where i'd be disappointed by him. One evening he told me he would call but didnt. When I finally heard from him the next day, he said, " Hi, Baby. Do you think you can come over tonight?" "What happened last night? You were supposed to call." "I was? oh shit." He had been concentrating on h... » Continue Reading
"Dearest Jilly, Sometimes I feel there is a hole inside of me..an emptiness that seems to burn, I think if you lifted my heart to your ear you could probably hear the ocean and the moon tonight theres a circle around it a sign of trouble not far behind. I have this dream of being whole, not going to sleep each night wanting but still sometimes when the wind is warm and the crickets sing I dream of... » Continue Reading