hiiii bfos back, its been 3 weeks since school started and i had so much going on, im not gonna give that much information, just spoiler, nothing has gotten any better. i just happen to get worse and worse. but since i still dont wanna be a bed rot looser that dose nothing, im forcing myself to do things even though im planning on death. so yep. im gonna do a 30 day writing challenge but since im ... » Continue Reading
so tomorrow is gonna be the first day of school and im nervous as fuck first of all the school uniform is ugly as fuck i can cry about it for a whole week, second of all i didnt got into the same class as my bestfriend, and there are no supermarkets around our school (im not sure bout this one but god if there is going to be no supermarkets id die, i NEED energy drinks) all of these aside, im stil... » Continue Reading
hello bfo's back, last night was a break down, like i was going insane, but meh. what can i do about it? schools start in 3 days and im so nervous, im at 10th grade and there is just 3 years left, and well i moved to another highschool (everyone did cus here we have 2 types of highschools, one is from 7th to 9th and the other from 10th to 12th and you should choose your main subject and im a math ... » Continue Reading
i used to love food a lot. i was getting chubby when i was 11. then since 12 i started eating less and less. at first it wasnt because of loosing weight, it was cus i was so busy with school and everything i forgot to eat or didnt want to eat in public. then at 13 i started to not eat cus of loosing weight. even with that insecurity and eating disorder, i liked food. i baked, cooked and ate low c... » Continue Reading
ive been having nightmares since i think the start of the summer. its always the same everynight. a normal dream that ends up with me running away from something. i hate getting followed. at first, i thought it would get fixed by itself but it didnt. i spent the first week waking up in fear almost having a heart attack. i was going crazy, i didnt know what was wrong. i even told my mom but she ju... » Continue Reading
hi, im bfo. lately things were, tough. im loosing my interest in all the small things that kept me happy. makeup, drawing, writting, talking. im forcing myself into believing in something, anything. its hard to have the feeling inside me. to want something that makes me feel joy. joy is such a complicated feeling. sometimes i tell myself if nothing really have a meaning, why am i forcing myself ... » Continue Reading