He knows I don't really like fem terms. And yet that's how I'm still referred to. And it's like I never came out at all but in the bad way. Like was my coming out just a joke? Was it seen as a bit? Do they laugh at me behind my back just because I chose an unconventional name? Like forget the name you can still call me my birth name, but at least call me your son óò » Continue Reading
He knows I don't really like fem terms. And yet that's how I'm still referred to. And it's like I never came out at all but in the bad way. Like was my coming out just a joke? Was it seen as a bit? Do they laugh at me behind my back just because I chose an unconventional name? Like forget the name you can still call me my birth name, but at least call me your son óò » Continue Reading
That's why I will continue to eat. I need the nutrients for csl. But maybe if I find another means for money I'll throw my life away again idk though. Tbh I doubt. as much as I love money, I also love eating. Sometimes I love eating too much :/ » Continue Reading
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!! I was trying to show my leftovers from Roadhouse, but I didn't realize I was holding my new GEEKBAR box in the same hand and AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA She didn't say anything, but still omg NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I wanted it to be secret!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! Hopefully she just doesn't give a shit and doesn't care and won't a... » Continue Reading
Lps are actually expensive asf. Like very expensive. And they appear to be less available than they were ten years ago. If I could I'd go back in time and tell my younger self to never EVER let go of my Lps collection because dear God I used to have a massive collection before my dumbass gave it all away. Fuck this, I'm gonna sell feet pics so I can afford to start my Lps collection :P (joking) » Continue Reading
I'd love to direct my own short film, but dear God do I hate telling people what to do, and dear God do I hate having to take up space. And that's why I think what if I just use Lps as my choice of medium. People do it all the time with Legos and Barbies and literally stop motion, so why not Lps :3 I'd make that short film about the boy who runs away to the city to find his girl. Omg I wanna talk... » Continue Reading
This is my "odd" obsession. I love specifically bad emo fanfics with mary-sues and Lps Films made by lpslover and sophiegtv. I literally know Lps Popular by heart, dude, I've rewatched it so many times AND every video that's ever talked about it. So why is this? My guess is I have always wanted to make 1 of each myself. I've wanted to make my own mary-sue fanfic about being a creepypasta proxy, an... » Continue Reading
I mean I'm still gonna choose to be unhealthy and hide my feelings and all that, but like at this point I think I'm gonna be able to do it without being miserable :3 I can do it and not have to be aware that I'm doing it :3 I remember the last time I was "unhealthy" all I did was think about it and revolve my life around it. I think if I try again today, I can do it without hyperfocusing on it. I... » Continue Reading
(Bro how do I drop this hint to him without literally spelling it out? Like I don't wanna just say it and he does it, then it feels fake and pointless) A skiddish animal needs to be lured. With things like treats or toys or simply a warm hand. Simply put: dude just treat me like a pet already, it seriously can't be that hard » Continue Reading
I told him how I felt about tomorrow, and it led to a disagreement, a fight. And it almost had me unallowed to go. And now I have two problems: 1. Do I wear what I already intended or do I change? Which decision leads to an unawkward pickup where the situation won't be brought up. 2. Do I behave subservient but in the subtle way that won't piss him off but in the way where I can still enjoy being... » Continue Reading
When I was getting food, my mom said to "save some for my sister" I feel generally terrible about my broad shoulders I saw an Instagram post describing "cigarette pretty" which just describes effy from skins With all these events happening, I have reason to believe that the universe is suggesting I resurrect my "Elf Diet" habits again. That's only if I have the motivation to do such a thing. I me... » Continue Reading
Thinking about it. It's silly to take this so far and to be so dramatic about it. I should view it as just friends going to hangout instead of making it all about me because realistically I don't want that to be the case. Like if really thought about, that's fucking weird, and I should only have to dress for him behind closed doors instead of in a ranch in brutal Texas heat. Like I can't help tell... » Continue Reading