I'm repressed : (

He was supposed to come over today. But then he changed his mind I guess. I don't even have the balls to ask why. I'll just accept it and pretend I'm fine with it.

But it hurts so much. I'm home alone, I'm sick, and I'm hungry. It would've been a perfect time. I would've paid for everything if he was worried about money. I would've done everything if I could. I'd do anything for him if I could. 

I just want to see him. I need to see him. I need to see him so much. I'd do anything I'd do whatever it takes I'd do anything anything.

But idk. He hasn't texted. I'm gonna keep pretending it's okay. I don't want to stress him with my desperation. He's going through enough already. He doesn't deserve my whining.