I'm afraid every day. there's this moment in time every morning where I open my eyes and my head flows like wind. I don't have a conscious and I am not at all. then the dread seeps through once I realized I am and I do and I live and I deal. it clouds me like matter and weighs my heart. but i must live and deal so I do though I am. it frazzles and twists me. I walk through my day possessed by it ... » Continue Reading
you are the girl before the leader and mother the martyr and the mourner you are the light that leads sees me how no one else sees me the branch that holds me and pulls me you're so much older and your life is so different now and even when life is so different, you still see me i'm sorry i have not seen you i love you » Continue Reading
do you feel me? my heart, a baby bird who aches to fly from this barrier into your deep blue skies crying for you to push, to see, to hold, to feed struggling my shape to be close to you to get your beautiful song of love im waving, hoping you see me hopeful, im waving do you see me? » Continue Reading