CONTENT WARNING!! this is something I wrote for my therapist after getting re-diagnosed with some issues that I already knew I had. For some reason, it made me really emotional. But even so,,, as personal as it is, i really liked how it came out!! There are some heavy themes, but I hope that maybe someone can relate to it!! I think it's odd. They say that when you have borderline personality diso... » Continue Reading
I'm afraid of growing up, but more importantly, I'm afraid of myself. I'll ruin myself for an ounce of attention, for a little bit of love. I obsess over people hard, I beg for them to just want me, it doesn't matter how. I'm scared that I'm going to ruin my own life, and that I won't even notice when I do. I've done it before, I can do it again. who's to say I'll get out of this one? life is stu... » Continue Reading
Born to make raspberry jam in the kitchen by hand Mixing the sugar in Bringing it to a simmer Smiling as you hug me from behind Pouring you some lemonade as I spread the preserves On a perfectly toasted slice of bread Making you lunch in our warm, cozy home. Forced to stare at whiteboards Waiting for a timer to end Fucking up my posture And spend the last moments this planet has Like an a... » Continue Reading