I have to get my haircut. Fair pictures are coming up which means it’s time to cut my hair and re-dye it so everyone knows I’m trans. I do this every year. Freshly cut and dyed. Last year it was green and a bit longer but this year I want to go all out. If the other gaybies who show pigs can’t easily identify me, I haven’t done my job. » Continue Reading
Today I had a very cat centered day. I, dressed in a hello kitty shirt, cat socks, and cat shoes. I picked up the ashes of my recently passed feline, got and ripped apart a cat tree then finished my day with playing video games and a cat sound asleep in my lap. It wasn’t a bad day nor an outwardly good day. It just was a cat kinda day. » Continue Reading
I spent 6 hours cleaning instruments. With my best friends and this young man who seems to be the complete other side of my proverbial coin. We bonded over mafia movies taking 3 of the 6 hours to watch The Irish Men together while deconstructing and reconstructing french horns (which neither of us of course play). It was nice. I hope to have this form of bond with him again. » Continue Reading
At therapy I did this exercise. I had to hold all my negative emotions gingerly; the book describing as a small masterpice. The book said any and all living beings are able to hold their feelings in such a way. but the addictive personalities in my family tree say that I can't. i guess I'll do it in spite then. so in therapy i sat with my negative feelings in my palm and "kindness" supposedly fl... » Continue Reading
In someone’s camera roll exists me and my friends shit talking on a bench. Unaware possibly by both parties lives hard evidence of us in one spot discussing the abuse and horrid events. I sat at a table today watching a concert. On someone’s phone is a video of me nodding my head to the song thinking of what punk anthem I could apply to my shitty relationship with some if these people. If you loo... » Continue Reading