one fun thing about spacehey is seeing all of the current teen emos with blogs that look basically how my old sites used to look back when i was their age. im glad theres still kids carrying that torch in 2023 lmao. i was already entering and environment considered dying/kinda passe by the 2010s, so im sure someone somewhere would feel the same way about what i was doing then and what im doing now... » Continue Reading
when i remember my old piczo sites part of me is glad its all gone forever. the cringe looking back on my younger self, knowing everything i didnt then. in the future i'll probably think the same of myself now. but i also miss piczo. there were a lot of memories stored there, and something that used to be so tangible and so important exists only my mind now. i guess what i'm trying to say is, bri... » Continue Reading
when the illness in your mind begins to seep into your body. when the immaterial becomes material through your flesh, ripping its way through your bones and blood and sinew. when you have no outlet for your emotions and they exit through your mouth not as bittersweet words but as sour and sickening bile. when the world feels like it is ending but it keeps turning. what are you to do? » Continue Reading
i feel like bad things happen to people around but always somehow miss me directly. should i be doing more because these are my friends, my family? or should i pull back because this isn't about me? when i feel sorrow, grief, rage, it feels unearned. it is not mine to feel. but it sits inside me anyways. » Continue Reading
about what i want out of life, but how do i know until i’ve experienced it? how do i know who i am when all i know is who i’m not? i used to think i knew what i wanted but then they changed. it could change again. it took me until age 25 to really understand i have more significant gender issues than i thought, but i still don’t feel totally solid. all i know is what i’m not, again and again. if a... » Continue Reading