thinking

about what i want out of life, but how do i know until i’ve experienced it? how do i know who i am when all i know is who i’m not? i used to think i knew what i wanted but then they changed. it could change again. it took me until age 25 to really understand i have more significant gender issues than i thought, but i still don’t feel totally solid. all i know is what i’m not, again and again. if anyone has the cheat code to self understanding let me know. 🦇