i think i'm going to tell my therapist that i'm ready to start the process of getting on T. the only thing i'm worried about is my family and work eventually finding out. actually never mind i'll continue saving up until i have a place i can go to incase i get kicked out. because i know my mom doesn't really accept me, my older sister is giving mixed signals and my younger sister will probably be ... » Continue Reading
i think one of my students might be dead. he hasn't shown up for the past few lessons he scheduled, all the messages i sent about rescheduling haven't even been marked as read and he recently went through a breakup (plus he has a history of bad mental health). the lessons keep getting confirmed though so i'm getting money for lessons im not even teaching but the site does automatic confirmation s... » Continue Reading
was eating some homemade oatmeal cookies with sardines (as one does) and it got me thinking of that one youtube channel that does "last meals" with internet celebrities. i know for a fact i would have fresh spring rolls with peanut sauce as one of the meals but i cant quite figure out what else i would have. im kinda stuck between rice and teriyaki chicken or bbq wings with lime crema sauce. i th... » Continue Reading
jesus i just spent a whole half hour on a stealth mission because i was having a cigarette on my older sister's balcony with her but when i went to go back to my room we realised our mother is still awake and cleaning. mind you it was 2 in the morning. and so we sat on the floor in complete darkness watching her fold towels for an eternity praying for her to just go to bed already. watching her li... » Continue Reading
finally redyed my hair black i feel like a normal person again. nothing different these days but i've managed to save quite a bit of money from working and i cant wait to hang out with my friend and boyfriend soon i stared drinking decaf tea before bed instead of my usual low intensity tea and the only thing that changed is im still wide awake but my body is completely useless. i feel stuck and i... » Continue Reading
moved all my furniture by myself and i'm very satisfied with how it turned out :) first i measured everything and my room wall to wall and remade it into a digital floor plan then moved things around till i was happy with the layout, then i went ahead and moved everything irl to match the plan. i'm going to switch bedframes with my sister soon, probably by the end of the week, then it will be com... » Continue Reading
spent the majority of last night looking through my old kandi for any beads i want to repurpose because i have like zero black/white beads but i dont plan on making enough new kandi to justify buying a new bag of beads. also jesus i was so obsessed with the colour pink, at least half of my collection is made up of pink kandi, so now i'm going to try to make more blue and black ones. i might buy a... » Continue Reading
made some dinner from a tiktok recipe i found and it turned out pretty good. i didn't fry it in oil though like the recipe said (i cooked it in the oven instead because i was too tired to deal with cleaning up an oily pan) so im gonna do that tomorrow night with the leftovers. mom is gone on a business trip so i was able to smoke out my window as i watched the storm. nice and cool weather today, a... » Continue Reading
drunk as hell playing nico’s nextbots i keep losing but honestly under influence so you cant judge my abilities right now. my bf put on a game grumps comp and im feeling. drunk ass bf asking if he can bite my computer he doesn’t understand game grumps but its okay because i understand the jokes. motherfucker just fucking bit me. son of a bitch » Continue Reading
i have perfected my trail mix routine. first off, ingredients are cashews, peanuts, raisins, m&m's and mini marshmallows. the nuts are salted. i eyeball the quantity of each ingredient poured into a small bowl then, for every one whole cashew or six pieces of peanuts, you also have three raisins, one m&m and one mini marshmallow. and enjoy all in one bite. the mix of sweet and salty, crunchy and... » Continue Reading
went shopping a couple days ago, im so happy i have a job now and can save up to buy things. i got some black jeans and sneakers that i've been wanting to get for a while now and a wolf tail keychain. i was originally saving up to buy a whole bunch of Game Grumps merch but i'm trying to empty out my room and get rid of everything i dont actually care about having so buying more things to put in he... » Continue Reading
disappeared for a couple months without realizing oops the days had just been blurring together with the stress of finding work but now im self employed and getting back into my hobbies so i hope to be more active here im no longer sad and broke and i also renewed my gym membership so i'll be taking better care of myself physically (still searching for an actual job but im less stressed out abou... » Continue Reading