fahhhhh

i think i'm going to tell my therapist that i'm ready to start the process of getting on T.

the only thing i'm worried about is my family and work eventually finding out. actually never mind i'll continue saving up until i have a place i can go to incase i get kicked out. because i know my mom doesn't really accept me, my older sister is giving mixed signals and my younger sister will probably be the only one to be fine with it. and then my students at my job i have no idea what their stances are and i'm not going to force myself to present femininely just to keep them coming. maybe i'll delete my profile once the changes become too obvious and then make a new one where i'm fully presenting male. but i dont want to go through the whole process again of getting students and only earning half my pay. 

fahhhhhhh 

alright okay. game plan. continue saving up incase i have to leave. tell therapist i'm ready but explain the things that i'm worried about. continue my work like normal and if anyone asks who cares if the student stays they stay of they don't i'll get more anyway. 

and when the changes become too obvious just update my profile 

definitely simple as that