decaf tea and dyed hair

finally redyed my hair black i feel like a normal person again. 

nothing different these days but i've managed to save quite a bit of money from working and i cant wait to hang out with my friend and boyfriend soon

i stared drinking decaf tea before bed instead of my usual low intensity tea and the only thing that changed is im still wide awake but my body is completely useless. i feel stuck and i hate the feeling of my mind working a mile a minute and desperately wishing to just pass out. i'll continue like this for a couple more days and then start taking the 100% melatonin i bought just like my therapist recommended. but god i despise the transition of night to day and the torture of trying to fall asleep (which is why i do anything to stay awake until i eventually pass out) 

anyway i really dont have much to say today