Today was a difficult day. It's only 3 months until you would've been 39. I have fought back 3 emotional break downs. Some days are good some days are bad, I feel like the only thing that gives me hope and helps me through these days that are bad, Is the fact that I will see you again some day. By the way I felt you today and I wanted to say thank you. You were a great friend and person. I m... » Continue Reading
Chester has saved multiple people from suicide and my life was one of them. I am so sorry Chester that we couldn't save your life, you didn't deserve to go through this and I am sorry you had to go through it and you suffered so beautifully for years and no one knew you hid it well and hid it for years » Continue Reading
Barrett... Today marks 4 weeks since you've been gone and Monday will mark 1 month since you've been gone. It still feels like yesterday that we found out about your passing and it still feels like I can't breathe. As I write this today I am still trying to wrap my head around it all and figure out how you at 37 passed away from something that should've been found and treated 2 weeks prior to your... » Continue Reading
How do we go from rust to shine just getting it done to getting it done right not talking at all passing you in the hall to needing to hear you say goodnight I gotta know is it worth the fight should I just let it go or try to change your mind is a chapter bout to start or is the book about to close? How do we go? How does he sleep at night mama the nerve of this guy to leave me so easy am I gonna... » Continue Reading