"Am I just lost in the rain, in the neon rain?"
30/ Female/ Santa Cruz, CA
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On March 1st I ended up finding out that I was 2 months pregnant... which explains the 2 months of extreme nausea and as of last Friday I am now married to the love of my life and my High School sweetheart. Big things are happening! » Continue Reading
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So I'm assuming that it started yesterday afternoon. I started having a slight sore throat around 4pm and it started getting worse throughout the night. so, I go to bed thinking maybe it's just allergies. then I wake up this morning feeling congested realizing that these were not my usual allergy symptoms. My allergy symptoms usually are not this bad. that's when I realized it was an actual cold..... » Continue Reading
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My depression subsided long enough for me to gain the energy to shower! » Continue Reading
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Looks like we finally get a nice stormy night here in the land of California. Its been a couple of years since we've had a good one. » Continue Reading
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Tonight I start the process of getting my room together for Halloween while watching the Karate Kid films. I am also slowly getting a cold... I started getting it yesterday. Woke up with a stuffy nose and an itch in my throat but then today I woke up with a massive headache that has not gone away. Now the body aches are beginning to start and also slight nausea. At least decorating for Halloween i... » Continue Reading
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So the day before yesterday I thought that the best way to get out of my funk would be to go to the Wharf with my fiance and watch him fish. We start off by going to Safeway to get some drinks and snacks around 7AM and then head to the Santa Cruz Wharf were he usually likes to go. When we got there it was nice and cold with foggy sky`s just how I like it... So I decide to put on a sweater and jus... » Continue Reading
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Finally got some decent sleep last night and woke up at a good time this morning. Today is the day I have to put the pieces of my sanity back together again. First starting by taking a shower after sitting in my filth for a week. Get myself dressed, do my hair and then maybe a little bit of make-up. Once I put myself together then get my room together... do some laundry, make my bed and then do e... » Continue Reading
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For the past week my sleep schedule has been all over the place. Not to mention I have started to have nocturnal panic attacks... which is concerning but luckily I have been able to manage it by having a fan by my bed, a cup of water, some calming music and slow deep breathing. Finally got some good sleep... for two days straight and then woke up at 8:00pm last night and have been awake since. ... » Continue Reading
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So I`ve been getting nocturnal panic attacks... Didn`t know those were a fucking thing until I looked it up!... I Kept thinking I was dying in my sleep! » Continue Reading
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I know this sounds kind of stupid but as of June 1st I am one month sober from marijuana. I had done it almost every day for about 10 or 11 years. My mind feels like it's going back to its original factory setting. And it feels good to think clearly again. » Continue Reading
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Ask me anything and I'll answer as honestly as I can. » Continue Reading
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This place really does feel like home! » Continue Reading
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