i hate everyone whose beloved mom is still alive. i hate you because you have what i will never have. i guess i will always be a kid to my mom, because she never saw me grow into an adult. but i will never see her grow old, either. i miss her. i miss her. its been 2 years but i dont know what to do. its the little things. its always the fucking little things. i miss her coffee even though i dont d... » Continue Reading
i miss hannah. i miss my mom. i miss myself. im so pathetic im looking for human connection in crumbs. as if i dont want to bother anyone but i need to know if im real. how many times have i put a video on the background so i could sleep to the sound of someone's voice? i feel like i never grew up. still the same kid lurking in random chatrooms online. just watching the messages go by, because the... » Continue Reading