even in my dreams I search for u LOL and u seem so unattainable its a crazy back and forth but its never close enough to be anything because i dont even know what that looks like i cant even conceptualize it » Continue Reading
i hate talking on the phone half of what i said doesnt get answered and i hate it i hate it so much i feel stupid as hell bc i bring it up too and it gets brushed over i wamt to » Continue Reading
i wonder what its like to be in someone’s mind snd i haye the mood swings i have i just want to fo drastic things but ifk not drastic drastic but omg i cant stand myself some » Continue Reading
today i passed by a place that held a lot of emotion but i am having a hard time swallowing my feelings or even seeing this location through a new lensmy sense of yearning and not even in a romantic sense but maybe idk i haven’t felt this way i ina i miss your presence and all that you shared with me i want to tell him but i don’t think it’s appropriate » Continue Reading
I’m starting to see that i may be better off alone i cant continue feeling so on edge i know why And it’s also super unreasonable And i want to give up on everything related to keeping a friendship maybe it’s not for me — i always thought it was a bit sad hearing my dad say that he doesn’t have any friends but now i see the peace that must come with it or maybe seeing someone so often isn’t good e... » Continue Reading
i never really understood asking oh are you mad at me? especially if i made it clear i didn’t like what was said like bro you clearly know something you said upset me yet you fail to address it in any way i cant help but just constantly feel disappointed by those around me and sometimes i do prefer having acquaintances that i see in a controlled environment because after a while, i find myself add... » Continue Reading
oh my jesus i lvoe kayaking so much guys my dad siad he can find me a truck so HOPEFULLY PLEAE PLASE PLASE PLSAE PLASE this is my manifestation post so it happens porfavor i am so tired and ihave to do math homeowotk this is genuinely so annoying but it is legit the only class i need to graduat e what is going on :D » Continue Reading
hehe people have been commenting on my blogs lately and i get so scared but not really heheh i exaggerate but im like wopah you can see this and read it its so funny im gonna pretend its not real though so it doesnt stop me from saying what i want to say » Continue Reading
i was speaking to my higher up about graduation and she tells me oh your adult job doesnt have to be your passion and blah blah LIKE WHAT YES IT DOES??? maybe that applies to them but there’s no way i would spend my days and time doing something i dont feel any good feelings towards— thats so strange i feel like this is pretty common and dont get me wrong this can be true for temporary jobs but i ... » Continue Reading
im getting to the point where maybe i am freaking out about leaving school just my day to day will be so different and i cant get over the fact i simply wont be here doing homework and i dont know just like with my friends who graduated before me i will lose contact with those around me and its not really something from my end its more of the fact that people are totally replaceable && i am no exc... » Continue Reading