well history repeats itself, here i am again and guess what! I'm still pretty much the same, 11 months ago i last wrote about my history exam, 11 months ago i was 15, i wasn't doing well then but it is hard to tell if i am doing better, let me think about what has changed, not much i think, im 16 now, i'm doing the IB, me and tiger are no longer friends, me and alex the russian guy now dislike eac... » Continue Reading
so my plan goes as follows, wake up at 4:30, go down stairs and get food, wrtite fromulas on my legs, and then revise :P i really want ot pass this and i feel awful for not taking it as seriously as i should of, god i'm such a failure but i am going to try my hardest without the writing i just need it as a little boost,anywas, gonna try my best! i'm somehwat excited hehe idk why, i hope i just rem... » Continue Reading
it was ok, tommorow, ACTION! but honestly...tigermug, he is such a good soul bless him, he is so kindd, he knew about me being very kinda badly treated when we first met and he knew my outbursts and me being annoying was because he knew i was in a very uncontrolled situation and it was my way of expressing myself, and he keeps on joining the vcs and talking to me to make sure i don't go back to th... » Continue Reading
i didn't go this yesterday, it's getting bad, i need to focus so, time to re-organise my discord and only talk to 3 people ughhhhh and study, study study stdy i need to do iti know when i'm getting bad again because i get the bad thoughts so oh well, time to go! » Continue Reading
well, i failed on the studying ugh, tommorrow i swear to god i will do this i swear, i will just tell him i'm working and i'm not allowed my phone at work so i can get studying done, i cannot be distracted by a boy! even if i love this boy will al my heart and he is the kindest person ever and is honestly making me feel like a better person in general, the short answer is no! i will not fail my e... » Continue Reading
so i have my exam in 6 days (oh no!) i didn't study today now i know that doing this might kick me in the ass but honestly? i'm not sure, i spent the whole day talking to this guy, he is called alexander he is russian and he is cute! i hope he isn't just playing with me...he is so nice but i've been played with before so i don't know, either way i do feel a big bit of guilt for not studying today ... » Continue Reading
so i did my eglish exam today only for my dyslexic ass to fuck it up... i'm not good at english i didn't finish my RUAE paper and my poetry and critical essay i think i messed up too... i hope i can pass honestly i know the thought idea is to think you can do it but honestly i don't know, i just hope my polio and essay can get me enough points but after the exam i was upset but luckily my mum co... » Continue Reading
ok so, multiple things happened tday, one thing that happened was that i got my clothes from shein, they look lovely don't get me wrong but some are too big but oh well, another thing is that nour broke up with his gf, sad for nour but also happy for him he said he feels free but i think he really did love her, poor guy, spent time thingking about johann, haven't thought of him in awhile, but i h... » Continue Reading
ok so today was pretty normal even though i do feel a bit sad, sometimes life just gets you down, hits you in places that hurt but i played roblox today, tommorrow i will study english, i have a suffed up nose today, oh yes and my dads car is gone now ): i will miss that car it was very nice, but in say 16 months he is going to try buy another! (hopefully) other than that not much happened today,... » Continue Reading
O M G so i had my first exam today, let me put this into perspective here i'm 15 and i'm sitting the exams that i have legit been working towards doing since i was like 13 maybe even younger, i hope i did ok ): i really want to pass my exams i hope i do, i don't like thinking about death at all it makes me upset, i felt ok today let me think, what do i like right now... i like florida and i like... » Continue Reading