and im here again

well history repeats itself, here i am again and guess what! I'm still pretty much the same, 11 months ago i last wrote about my history exam, 11 months ago i was 15, i wasn't doing well then but it is hard to tell if i am doing better, let me think about what has changed, not much i think, im 16 now, i'm doing the IB, me and tiger are no longer friends, me and alex the russian guy now dislike eachother a lot, my whole family situation got a lot better tho! my mum says she wont mind if i come out of my school i'm in, and go to college, i might do that my school hasn't been very good to me, doing IB was probably the biggest mistake in my whole life, i'm not angry, im not sad, im stressed but it's ok. i have other options but these exams are defo not gonna be good results, i don't know why i do this to myself honestly, i know i'm not nearly as smart as the other people in my classes yet i do this for what reason? none that i can think of other than it might get me a little be further in life, it matters a lot to me i hope i can pull through with these mock exams and do good, i need to work on myself tho, my hair is all matted becuase i haven't been able to take care of it, my room has mould on it and i cant focus on much, i need to pull myself together but i eventually will :) once these exams are over i can relax again, i will be able to breathe again you know?

thanks, until next time