sometimes i wish i had the spirit and body of a boy, while remaining a girl. i love long hair, like i love sparkly makeup and sharp eyeliner and dressing up, but i think i wouldve liked myself better in a boys body. skinny arms a thighs, a flat chest, skinny all around. i was cursed as a girl, but i am doing my best. soon, i will move to the west coast. until recently, i could never picture myself... » Continue Reading
i love work. i am sick, at the moment, but besides that life has been good. i have a work best friend, and she came over to my house almost everyday for a week straight. i like my coworkers. we hung out on friday, watched a movie and stayed out until around 2 in the morning. im gonna miss them when summer ends. ill have a month to do whatever after work ends. maybe i can travel europe. i hope life... » Continue Reading
LMFAOOO. been having a great 4 days w my friends. today, however, my wallet was stolen. everything has been frozen, i have been making appointments, but i am very tired. hope things will go good soon. » Continue Reading
oh my goodness. i have been so extremely busy. i got a job as a camp counselor! im working with preschoolers, and its a lot of fun. maybe i was meant to work with kids. i get along with my coworkers super well, and some of us are going to the movies this friday. i took a break from my movie script, but i did write a MV script. will be continuing my movie soon. ive made a friend already in oregon, ... » Continue Reading
officially graduated. still working on a script that i love very much, and may work on a music video script soon. work starts soon, and im excited for my summer to start. » Continue Reading
what do you do when you simply feel like a waste of a person? i never do anything fun with my life. i'm a part of several friend groups, but i have a solid place in none, so when one group goes out at night or parties or gets together, i'm often stuck home alone. and it is my fault, because i never really got close to people. i didn't even have anyone sign my yearbook, because i thought there was ... » Continue Reading
its nights like these where i have realized my life amounts to nothing yet. tonight, all my friends are out, partying and celebrating the end of the school year. meanwhile, im home, in my room, sitting in the dark. i get this big ideas in my head that make me feel like maybe i could be something, but im never able to pull them off. i simply dont have the talent or skills to complete these ideas. s... » Continue Reading
It is now the start of summer; i kicked it off with pizza, cake, and a movie marathon with a friend. i am finally allowed to sleep in, to take a breather, to just relax. i get this freedom for 3 weeks. eventually, i will start work, but i dont mind that. ill be doing what i enjoy, and it will help me sharpen my social skills. over the next 3 months, i must do my best to make these final memories w... » Continue Reading
in one of the courtyards, and only one, the grass and flowers have become overgrown. the grass would reach above my knees, and the random spurts of wheat sway slower than the rest of the square. the vibrant flowers that i was so excited to see have been overtaken, swallowed by the sea of green. but i think thats fine. its something nice to look at, when my teachers voice falls on the ground, ignor... » Continue Reading